I got a new calling. I get to teach Laney in church. After the first week she said mom its ok you will do better next week. I will help you. Oh and some people bring treats. She is so funny.
When Ari died she said,"at least you have to more girls meaning kaley and Lilly. Then she said if two girls would have died dad would be pissed. But it would be quitre so maybe he would like it."

Another one of my favorites is her saying Travis looks like a Fat Jesus. The things she says.

BIKE RIDING

We have had a lot of fun bike riding lately. We went with the Levi and Zed. they are crazy. It is very entertaining.

Alaina got up to bear her testimony and said one thing."I know my Mommy loves me". It made me feel wonderful! That is my main goal as a Mom, that my kids know that I love them. There are so many times I wish I would sacrifice more, teach more, listen more, you get the idea. But hey one of my kids knows I love them. That has got to count for something.

I read this story that was similar to Ari's. The last thing her daughter said to her was."I love you Mommy". I was so jealous the last thing my daughter did was hit me for letting them do what they just did to her. I went to bed thinking about it and the next morning I woke up went down the hall and there was a book laying there that I didn't even know we had. The title was "I Love You Mommy". Thank you Ari. I love you to!!

Camping and rock climbing

This week we went camping at red cliffs. We went Repelling. Me and dannie went face first. It is very beautiful. We went hiking up the caynon and went on some rock slides into the water. It was way fun. The next day we went floating down the river. The river got really flooded this year and it was pretty deep. The first time we went it was peaceful and fun. Each time it got a little crazier and crazier. The last time we went it was death defying and we all nearly drowned. GOOD TIMES GOOD TIMES!!!!

lilly crawls like a frog.

lilly crawls like a frog it is the funniest thing. If she is really exited she will get air. She would land right on her tummy.

As prepared as I thought We were it is still very hard. It feels like at least once a day I break down crying. It hits you out of no where that she is no longer her. Every thing you do the last time you did it was with her. Reminders are everywhere. Each one makes me want to cry. But at the same time I am greatful for each reminder. Each memory each moment. I hope it starts to get easier. She had such an amazing spirit. I feel like the hole time through her pain. Living in the hospital. And every bump we had we were still very happy and at peace. I feel like that came from her spirit. Every one around her could feel her spirit and gather strength from it. I feel like with her gone I'm a little kid again. I guess it is time for me to learn to stand on my own feet again. Thankyou ari for your strengh. Love patience. Smile. Kindness and just for bring you. I love you.

Lilly reminds me so much of Ari. She is starting to learn to crawl. So exiting. She is such a great baby.

we went sleding this weekend. We like to go sleding at least once every winter. It was such a blast. Corey has made these bike skis that are so much fun. The snow was perfect.

In Church volley ball this year are ward took 1st. We didn't make it very far in regional but we had a great time.

The kids made this swing it was pretty funny.

12 years and counting. Travis and his princess birthday cake isn't he cute!