Another fever

Tonight Ari got another fever. She has had one every night for 5 days in a row. Everyday they tell us she can go home if she doesn't have a fever for longer then 24 hours, we are starting to think that day might never come. we actually are starting
to really like it here. we are becoming pretty good buddies with our nurses. This is by far the best hospital ever.

The way we got here this time is. After Kaley's birthday we just stayed in Mt Pleasant until her Monday appointment. We got to her appointment at 11 and everything went pretty smooth. She got chemo and a transfusion. We left at about 5:40 At about 6:00 she had a hard time breathing. Her breathing was like someone getting ready to have a baby. She also got a fever. She would grab a hold of me with her little fist and scream out in pain. If you know her you know that she never cries or screams even when she is a ton of pain. We gave her some oxycodin and it didn't even touch it. We called Primaries and they told us that even though we were only 30 miles away to just go to the nearest emergency room. We ended up at Alta hospital. They checked her vitals, witch weren't good, but were pretty much at a loss on what to do about this black hole of a baby. so They suggested we put her in an ambulance and send her up to Primaries. They said that it would take about 15 min to get their ambulance ready, witch to me was crazy. Or they said we could try taking her. So that is what we did. Thankfully Jeremy came got our other kids. We went about 90 miles an hour and made it about 15 min. When we got their they did about 20 different tests and x-rays and of course everything came back negative. They gave her morphine for her pain witch helped a Little. At one point her hart rate was 204.

So now we are back. she is such a mystery.

This is a text that Travis sent out to the family the next morning:

Family, I have to admit as of yesterday I am feeling the challenge of Ari’s condition. I thought I was a super hero, numb to the situation. But the endless physical torture that she endures everyday has pierced my heart to a point of almost bitterness towards faith and the atonement. But I know better than to go there. I do know that what is happening is in Gods control, I just don’t agree with it. I would rather that she moves on into the next estate as to have to continue enduring such excruciating pain. Pain that a grown man would fear, a pain you would only wish upon an evil enemy.

I wonder what this financial challenge and Ari’s challenge is for what purpose? I often ponder searching for an answer but find myself confused and question the power of God. But then I step back and realize that these experiences are for my own good and I realize that I have learned so much from them, my relationship with my wife and kids have grown, my gratitude for life and health have increased, my love for family and appreciation for those relationships have deeply awaken a better understanding of God’s plan. I then realize that these experiences are a great blessing from God and I feel privileged for the opportunity that he has allowed me to take part of them. I anxiously gather everything I feel like I have learned and with a joyful and grateful attitude I try to go back out there and make the best of the situation. Knowing, with no doubt that God knows and understands and I find comfort that God is in charge orchestrating such a divine occasion. I then feel embarrassed for doubting the power of God and the atonement. I then realize my role is simple. It’s the basics, have charity, have faith, have a good attitude, continue to learn, continue to be grateful, and most important endure the trial and never give up hope.

Dad I really want to thank you for all you’re doing to help with such a business disaster right now. Your handling matters that make me cringe, I am so grateful for you and you may not know how much you’re helping me right now thank you.

(Mom) thank you for the many endless nights of support and the miles that we physically put in together in the beginning of Ari’s journey and thank you for supporting Dad with the business challenges we have right now.

(Dona) thank you so much for taking care of our kids and getting them in school. I wish we would have left them in, but I guess…..What do they say about hindsight?

(Liz) thank you for the blog it has allowed a lot of people to remain updated. You not only have kept them updated but with your gift of writing you’ve allowed it to be inspirational and entertaining.

(Vicki) thank you for your example of positivity and endurance. You’ve always demonstrated those two attributes our whole lives. You’ve always been an example to me of being positive and never giving up.

(Bobbi) thank you for your support even showing up at the hospital and no one was there. LOL. Thank you for taking the kids, coming and getting them from Alta emergency room and for caring for them like their own mother.

(Jaymi) thank you for the many endless nights at the hospital. For all the many trips you have made to haul kids.

(Taylor) thank you for being you. I don’t know if you know but Ari’s in the hospital. LOL (“when the freak did we get ice-cream?”) thank you Taylor for letting me tease and make fun of you!

(Brian) thank you for your silent support when I speak with you I feel such a love and concern not only for Ari but for me and Haley as well.

(Jake) thank you for many endless nights at the hospital of so much support and sleeping on couches and always physically being here for support.

(Amber) thank you for so many dinners you have brought. Your food is so good. Your support to Haley has been very helpful. You’ve always just shown up out of the blue just waiting to see if there is anything you can help with.

(Kim) thank you for dressing up Kaylor and sending us pictures of her. She is beautiful.

(Lorri) thank you so much for all you have done there is no doubt that if there is anyone that Haley and I can rely on to receive any kind of help from it is you. You are so non judgemental and your endlessly supportive of anything we do, willing to endure with a humble and grateful attitude. I am also grateful for the strength that Haley gets from you.

(Haley) I don’t have words to express my gratitude for you. Your example of faith and humility are not human. You never give up, you’re always grateful. I am so impressed by the way you’re in tuned to what Arianna needs medically and emotionally. The way you took charge the other day when Arianna was vomiting and having convulsions. You gave orders to the doctors and it was your mother’s intuition that saved Arianna. I find it very important to give gratitude to people and God. I feel like when I recognize my blessings and give thanks for them for some reason burdens are alleviated

I think he is amazing. He is defenetly a super hero to me. We really do have so much support. Today Ammon and Hayley drove all the way up to see us. They brought me some much needed stuff and saved me a trip. they also brought Ari some really cute Dora stuff. On the movie they bought her. the princess name is arianna. I don't even think they knew that when they got it. They also brought some stuff for her to color. she has been into crafts lately. she loves painting. Another thing she loves is this song called 10 snowmen learn to read, it is on a web site called starfall. I love this web sight. We finally taught her how to push the button to play the song so we don;t have to do it every 10 seconds, hours on end. she holds her fingers up and waves them back and forth and laughs, it is so cute.

Josh and Joni Jones have also brought in Delicious meals to us. We enjoy seeing and visiting them. They are great friends.

The Kids are enjoying being at aunt Bobbi's. She has made it quite fun for them. I seriously don't know what we would do without all their aunts and uncles. thanks so much to everyone.

Atalie Bradshaw

I was talking to Micheal at about 6:00pm and i asked if Angie had anything new happening. He said no she is pretty much in the same labor she has had for 2 weeks now. I did the same thing with Ari. You are definitely aware of the contractions but they are not very hard and it doesn't Make you stop living your day, Slow and steady.

About a half an hour latter Micheal called and said, "we have a baby". They were out walking, talking to me and then when they got home she got in the tub. Needless to say it happened so fast that even all the help up there didn't make it. Micheal delivered their beautiful, healthy baby girl. She weighed 6lbs 4oz. They named her Atalie witch i think is beautiful. They pick the best names.

Atalie had a true knot just like Taylor, witch are very rare. So you have flipping or cart wheeling baby. I was so glad Taylor's birth was slow and steady and no one rushed me. His was a 30 hour labor and at the end My midwife was telling me not to push, He pretty much crawled out. Had he gone to fast he could have tightened his not and cut of his oxygen. So everything happened just the way it needed to.

Both Angie and Baby are doing really great. Births are such a miracle every time, but this one was AMAZING . They so deserved this one. Thank you Heavenly Father for helping them. They are such awesome people, with great amounts of faith. We love them all so much

Kaley's 10th birthday

I can't believe my baby is 10. I just want her to stay our little girl. Really we don't get these kids very long. Time goes by so fast.

Kaley is already so responsible for her age. She is as clean as her Dad and she is a better Mom then me. She also likes to tease like her Dad, I think all our kids inherited that, it keeps life full of laughter. She is such a good kid. We all love spending time with her. She had a great birthday.



Getting ready to hit the pinnate.



Balloon races.


she got a lot of birthday spankings, even though she was really fast.

first testimony meeting being home

I should have known my first testimony meeting after coming home from the hospital would be emotional. The Bradshaw side of me our just bawl babies. No matter what when we are all together if my Dad starts crying we all go down. It is pretty bad.I can never say all i want to, when i start out crying. Today i felt that i had to get up and publicly thank my Father in Heaven for his love and letting us keep our little girl. I truly know i am loved.

I am so grateful for the Savior and The atonement. I am grateful for the knowledge that he suffered all my pains not just the pains of sin and repentance but also pains of sorrow and trails. He truly does make our burdens lighter. He will never leave us.

I am grateful for my trials because I know they make my marriage stronger, my family stronger, and my relationship with my Heavenly Father and Savior stronger. I think there are two types of trials, one that bring you closer to Christ and ones that you let take you away. Hopefully we can take every trial we have as an opportunity to bring us closer to Christ.

Jay also got up and Bore his testimony, like my Dad he has a really strong testimony. One thing he said that i feel exactly the same is, how in Africa they about called for permission to give there own sacrament because they missed it so bad. I feel the same way. I love gong to church I always have. I feel that it renews me and helps me get through life. I am so grateful for the gospel and being able to take the sacrament. After not being able to go to church, for what ever reason i start to crave it so bad, it is like a big part of me is missing. Corey also got up and bore his testimony. He got my tears falling all over again. He is an amazing person.

I am so grateful for all my family and blessings. I am so grateful for each of my beautiful kids. The scripture about having joy in your posterity is so true, my kids really do feel my life with joy. I am so grateful for Travis. I try to Thank Heavenly Father for him every day. My hope is that if i am grateful for the most amazing husband, Father, and best friend anyone could ever have, I will deserve to keep him forever. My goal in being a good wife is to treat him half as good as he treats me. I love him so much. like i always say," I really am spoiled".

Back in the hospital

Monday was our appointment at Primary's hospital. Ari usually gets her chemo and maybe a blood transfusion. About 45 min from the hospital Ari vomited this dark brown stuff. later we found out it was dry blood. By the time we got to hospital her fever was 104, so they admitted her. That day her ddavp didn't work and when that happens she gets dehydrated and drinks and pees like crazy. Within 2 hours she was completely dehydrated and vomiting every few minutes. She started getting really lethargic. I help her up to through up and she just flopped, her head going straight in her lap. So we got the doctor there and they were tapping her chest saying her name trying to get her to come out of it. It scared me half t death. She had never acted like this before.If ever we have something new come along. They checked her sodium and it was 172 so they checked it 4 more times. Both the doctors there had not seen any ones that high. they were actually really surprised how well she was doing. I can't imagine what would be worse. They rushed her down to intensive care and started pumping her with all kinds of stuff. Well she pulled out of it and i was thinking how terrified i would have been if i had been at home. So i am grateful it all happened while we were up here. Heavenly Father was watching out for us again. We were very lucky.

Arianna is so attached to Kaley. She cried for a good 10 minutes when she left.

Marathon 2009

Any idiot can run. It takes a special kind of idiot to run a marathon. I saw this sign along the beautiful down hill road of the Marathon this year. It made me laugh, maybe because it is so true. I have not run for 2 months. I have been in a hospital bed for the last month, hardly moving. I was not physically prepared for this marathon. These last few days we have been so grateful to be home. I kept going back and forth in my mind whether i would attempt doing the marathon this year. My mistake was mentioning to Travis i was thinking about it. He was so exited and told everyone. So much for running under the radar. I figured if no one was waiting at the finish line i would not feel bad about bailing out somewhere along the trail.
Travis's childhood friend Josh Jones and his wife Joni came down so she could run it. this was her 12th marathon. She was motivational also. So there i was at 5:00 am waiting for a bus up the hill. I kept telling myself Anything after a half marathon would be great. 6 hours later I was almost there, praying every step of the way, and feeling so grateful for my physical health, and grateful to Heavenly Father for all he does for us. I thought a lot about Arianna and how grateful i am for her being here on this earth with us still, and how she has been so strong and how much pain she has been through. If she could make it through that pain I could make it through this. The last mile Kaley and Taylor ran with me i told them this last mile was for Arianna, so we all picked it up to a pretty good pace, they crossed the finish line with me.



My shirt has a picture of a turtle on it and it Says," I Am Running". So True


liz wrote this on Ari's blog and i loved it she is so sweet

Finisher

Written by Elizabeth (Lane) Hibbard

I can't believe how much endurance Haley seems to have. She seems so sweet, guileless, and innocent. In first appearances, she doesn't give any hint as to how much strength she possesses. On Saturday, I was telling my husband, Brant, that Haley ran the St. George Marathon today. I said she hadn't even been training and just ran it. He said, "It's not that hard. You just have to put your mind to it."

Yeah, right, I thought. I could not just "put my mind to it." Then, I thought about it more and more. I've thought about it the last couple of days and I realized he was right. She did just "put her mind to it." She has either learned this or comes by it naturally, but she knows how to do that. I think that with Haley, she "puts her spirit to it," then her mind follows, and then her body follows. Now, of course, she has run marathons before and she knows what it takes. But I think she has been able to accomplish any goal she sets because she becomes so determined.

I've realized how many challenges in my life have become obstacles, not because I really can't do them, but because I haven't put my mind to it. I think Haley is such a great example. She said on her blog that as she was running, she kept thinking about what Ari had gone through and how strong she had been. She knew Ari didn't give up and kept fighting. It was from Ari that she drew her strength.

The last mile, Kaley and Taylor ran with her. I think, like in life, when our family runs alongside us, it can give us that extra boost and help us find our way to the finish line. I guess, in life, there are starters, quitters, and finishers. I hope that when it's all said and done I can stand under a banner that reads "Finisher."